Can I really do this?
Can I leave my Bubba overnight? Can I not put her beautiful little person to bed and be the person to receive her first morning warm sleepy cuddle?
She’s 17.5 months old. She’s been going to family day care for almost a year. It is in this home, with this fanily who love her, that she’ll spend her first night away from her mumma.
People says it’s good for both of us, healthy even. I have dinner with a group of wonderful girlfriends to look forward to tonight. And if my body clock will let me, I can sleep in tomorrow.
So why do I feel like an awful mumma? Why do I feel so sad? So empty? Why does every fibre of my being want to drive straight back there, hold her to me and never let her go?
Why did I walk away from her this morning sobbing uncontrollably?