How do I walk away again having left my Bubba with someone I don’t know?
I know I am going to do this so many times in our lives. Lately I’ve read some of my favourite bloggers accounts of packing their bubbas off to college. I can’t imagine that it gets any easier as they get older. As a parent, does your heart break a little bit every single time?
This morning we went to meet a new day carer because our regular lady is going to be away for a few weeks. She seemed nice enough and certainly had lots of toys and books and a big outdoor space for the children to play.
But she’s still someone we don’t know. And I need to trust her to care for the most important part of me: my Bubba.
We are so spoilt with our regular carer, and I said that to her when I dropped Bubba off this morning. I know she is cared for greatly and loved - not only by her carer but also by her whole family. She’s also still the baby in the house so she receives that extra special love saved for the youngest. In this new scenario she would be right in the middle - a place I’m not used to her being.
I realise that she will be fine in almost any situation. So far I’ve raised a lovely child who is kind, happy and sweet. During our brief visit she shared toys with two of the other children. She sat happily and played with a toy in one room then when we went into the back yard she picked up some toys that had been left on the ground and gave them to me.
I’m a strong believer (after many years working in recruitment and human resources) of going with your gut instinct, and while there was nothing wrong with the home we saw this morning – it just didn’t feel like the place for my Bubba.
Maybe I need another visit? Or maybe I need to keep looking?
I know Bubba will be okay in most situations.
But will mumma?