I love my Bubba. Lots.

I am, however, this week missing a couple of things because I’m a single mumma.

I’d really like to be at my work Christmas party tonight, but I couldn’t get a baby sitter.

On Sunday, I’m meant to be going to see Elton John play at a winery. On a summer evening. With my sister and friends. But today I had to make the decision that I can’t go. Because Bubba has been sick and I just can’t take her with me because that would throw her routine out. And she’s only just on the road to recovery now, so that’s not fair to her. And it’s over 2 hours drive each way so I can’t drive there and back because I’m exhausted. And that wouldn’t be responsible. Because I’m her mumma. And she needs me.

They may seem like little things, but I’m still missing them. Particularly not going Elton John with my sister – it’s something I’ve wanted to do for years and have been looking forward to since we bought the tickets months ago.

I know there will be other concerts and other Christmas parties. And I know that my life is going to sometimes be about giving up things because I chose to be a single mumma.

Lucky I have Bubba to keep me entertained.

Oh, and my beautiful puppies. While we’re on the subject: Happy Birthday Beary – 3 today – where did the last 2.5 years go? This photo was taken the first time he came to visit our home (to test it out as a foster home – ha ha). He liked it so much he stayed. And we’re grateful every day that he did.