I’m not feeling the love. Seriously. And not just generally not feeling it – I’m specifically not feeling it from my Bubba.

I don’t know if it’s a natural withdrawal that I’m feeling because it’s day 2 of full weaning, or if this has just coincided with an independent phase for her, but I’m not feeling it.

At all.

And it’s making me really sad.

I worked from home yesterday so I picked her up from daycare almost an hour before I would normally. Yay, what a great bonus to be able to pick her up a mere 5 minutes (the time it took to walk from our home to daycare) after I finished work – and to be able to spend that extra hour with her in the evening.

When I arrived, her carer said that Bubba has been extra cuddly in the past couple of days, giving her loads of cuddles and kisses. Bubba has also been super snuggly with the pups.

Loves for everyone. Everyone except her mumma. Every time I tried to kiss or cuddle her, she’s pushed me away. When I asked for a kiss, she looked at me as if I’d lost my mind.

Other than her initial vague interest when I walked into daycare – she held up the toy she was playing with so I could see – Bubba could have cared less if I was in the room or not all evening. Except of course, for the 3 times when I wasn’t in the room. Then she came to find me and cried or put her arms up and as soon as I did pick her up she smacked at me and grizzled at me until I put her down again.

She was the same the night before. Any request by me for loves from her has been met with indifference. And rejection.

I haven’t been able to take a photo of us together for days because every time I get her close she pushes me away and gets grumpy.

Maybe it’s just me, but I’m feeling very unloved right about now.

And just a little bit heartbroken.