I’m a glass half full girl. I see the positive in most situations. I believe in people.
But today the overwhelming enormity of it all settled like a black cloud just above my head – and that cloud wouldn’t go away. I had to bite back tears any number of times.
I am responsible for so much. Don’t get me wrong, I chose this responsibility – and I wouldn’t give up being mumma to Bubba, Bella and Bear for anything in the world.
I would, however, like the universe and destiny to cut me some slack. I don’t want to be stressed any more.
And I’d really like some stability in my life.
Sure, I’d love to stay home with my three loves all day every day, but I have to go to work. At least until someone turns my blog into a book then options it for theatrical release and it becomes a Hollywood blockbuster.
But for now, back to reality.
Thud.
I need a permanent job. It shouldn’t be this hard to find one.
I hope we don’t have to move house. Aside from the huge task that is packing your life and moving some place new, doing that with a baby and two dogs is huger! And in Australia (as utterly ridiculous as this is) renting when you have one fur kid is tough enough, let alone two. And they’re not small. That’s if you can find a rental property. Rents are high and rental properties are limited.
I came home to my beautiful girl and basked in her love and spent time sitting on the floor with her while she put toys on my head and giggled. I cuddled my beautiful dogs. I read my favourite blogger’s blogs.
I know it will all be okay. I trust that my guardian angel is looking over us.
But for now, I’d really just like someone else to look after me for a while. Sometimes this being a mumma all on your own is a tough gig.
Some days the road is bumpy. Today was one of those days.
bumpyroadtobubba 
Hi!
A big Collie hug from the collies! Know we are praying for you. We sure know about bumpy roads and like all things this will pass. In the meantime know you have friends praying for you, rooting for you and cheering you on. Hang in there…. it is never easy but then anything worthwhile in life is never easy. Lord knows I have the scars to prove that. We and I am sure everyone who reads your beautiful blog, are cheering you on. 🙂
God Bless You and Keep You! Give Bubba a huge hug!
The Collies and Chuck 🙂
Thank you Collies and Chuck. It’s nice to know we have friends all over the world who care about us. I’d like a stacks on collie cuddle right about now – I’ll just have to imagine it 🙂 x
Mummy to Poppy Grace – I know exactly what you are feeling because I had my daughter on my own too. Today my beautiful daughter is 17 and does not recall the days that mom sat on the floor playing with her through tears and exhaustion, so hang in there. Though it is hard some days to manage it all, just like you teach Bubba to take baby steps, you need to do that too. When you can’t deal any more, just look at the header of your blog with that incredible smiling face, take a deep breath, and know, you are not alone. ❤ DogDaz
I promised when I started this blog that it would be an honest account of life as a single mumma, and some days/times just seem tougher than others. It’s so comforting to have support from friends near and far. I just read your latest blog and I was thinking the same thing last night – I’d like to come back as a dog but only in my family or to one of the families of our blogging buddies! Thanks for checking in on me, I really appreciate it. x
Mom and I will also say prayers for you. We want this bumpiness to smooth out, and we are positive it will before too long. When Mom and I had to move to a new apartment, we thought we’d NEVER find a place that allowed dogs, but then we did and it is PERFECT. We have so much happiness here, now. Bumps happen. So does smooth sailing. Hang in there.
Love and Happy Thoughts,
Cupcake
Hey MJ and Crew! We are sorry you’re in a rough patch but we take comfort knowing you have so many who love you around you. Bumps are just bumps and in the end, it will all be okay. It always is! Keep your head up and give your babies a few extra snuggles 🙂
Love and warm thoughts to you all!
-Deanna and the Crew
We’re here for you, even though it’s miles and miles away. Take comfort in your fur-babies and that sweet Poppy. Good things will come–it’s just hard getting to them sometimes.
Sometimes it’s hard. Especially when you’re a single mom. But things do get better and sometimes they’re really good. Praying for the really good for you.
Everything will be okay xx
Prayers for you and your beautiful family, remember God never gives us more than we can handle even if it seems like it some days.
I think all of us single mamas feel like this. I know I do for the stupidest things. I want someone to worry about errands, chores and mostly someone I can cuddle at the end of the day! Don’t worry sugar, you’ll get your slack soon enough xo
I don’t know if these sites will help or not and you may already know of them! I just wanted to share them in case you do need to look for a new rental property (hopefully this isn’t the outcome though!)
http://www.petnet.com.au/pet-friendly-living
http://www.petfriendlyrentals.com.au/
I didn’t know about them – thanks so much!
I think you are truly amazing. so responsible, so energetic, so awesome.
Why do you need a permanent job? I thought you had one?
Renting in Sydney is a nightmare, we’ve been through it and recently had the most horrendous experience. I have two beautiful dogs (my girls), I work from home, have a weekly cleaner, my girls (dogs) do not shed, they are bathed and blow dried weekly, they are never left home alone (I hate to leave them) yet it is so difficult to rent a house!
It’s scarey. You have so much on your plate and I understand that you would feel nervous and overwhelmed. I’m so happy you have family and good friends.
Louise xx