Empty

I knew this day would come. The day I stopped breastfeeding my Bubba (and not just because I was so tired that I forgot!).

Bubba has been a little fussy the last few mornings when I’ve fed her, so I think maybe it’s time to give up our final feed. I don’t really want to, because it’s the last thing that I and only I can do for her. But I also want what’s best for her.

Before Bubba was born, I had hoped that I could feed her for the first 6 to 12 months. The fact that I managed to feed her solely for the first 6 months, and then decreasingly until she was 15 and a half months is a great achievement. For both of us.

But today all I feel is empty. And for the first time in a very long time, Bubba clung to me and cried her eyes out when I dropped her at daycare. And I cried when I left her.

It may take us a little while to adjust to our new routine.

5 Comments Add yours

  1. Bassas Blog says:

    It is a big change but try to think of it as another milestone in bubba’s growing up x

  2. Awww. 😦 I feel your pain. When my babies weaned I felt like a special part of our relationship had died, I was definitely in mourning. It will get better. And you are a rock star for giving her liquid gold for so long! πŸ™‚

    1. Thanks. This morning was really hard too and she cried when I dropped her at daycare again (which she so rarely does). We will both be okay but at the moment I feel so removed from her 😦 Thanks for stopping by and sharing our story!

  3. Ever considered bed-sharing? It extends that lovely bond for sure.

    1. She’s such a wriggler that I’m worried she’ll fall out + I’ll spend my nights awake worrying πŸ™‚ We’re having loads of cuddles though!

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