Hold me closer tiny dancer

There are literally a couple of hundred photos of Love Bug and my first ballet class yesterday: Petite Ballerinas {Dance with me}. Her aunty and fairy god mother came to class with us to cheer us on. It was great for moral support, but also was wonderful for me that I could just be in the moment with Bubba and not have to think about capturing the class on film.

The ballet class was really sweet. Lots of little ballerinas following Miss V’s lead: pointing their toes, making rainbows from their arms, using sparkly stars, wands and scarves as props, running on tip toes around the room, dancing with their mummas {and some brave ones on their own} and generally having a lovely time.

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As gorgeous as this all was, the overwhelming feeling I had yesterday was that I wanted to protect my Love Bug. You can see in the photos how shy and unsure she was for most of the class. There are photos of groups of tiny ballerinas that show her standing back in the group. I wish I could share those photos here so you could see what I’m talking about, but those children and their families deserve the privacy they’ve chosen. Part of her standing back I know is her lovely manners, but part of it is also her shyness. And that breaks my heart a little bit.

ballet with mumma

For a little girl who dances and sings with so much joy and reckless abandon at home, she was incredibly timid and reserved in class. My tiny dancer just wanted me to hold her closer. {Sorry Sir Elton – and Tony Danza – I couldn’t resist.}

When I thought about why, I can only reason that Bubba goes to family day care where there are a maximum of five children each day, and this is the first class she’s taken, so she’s not used to large groups of children. She has always been shy at first in situations where there is a lot of noise and a lot of people. Yesterday was no exception.

While most of me wanted to pick her up and carry her out of that situation which made her uncomfortable, the bigger part of me knows that she needs to get used to crowds and other children: some bossy, some well-meaning, others whose manners may not be as lovely as hers, others who will become steadfast friends despite her shyness. That’s how life is and I would hate for her to not be as well equipped as she possibly can be for it. After next week’s class we’re going to have a coffee with Sara from TheMamaClub where the classes are held, and her little ballerina. Petite steps.

ballet bw

I’m going to work really hard over the next couple of months to make sure we spend more time in situations where it’s noisy and there are lots of children. So she not only gets used to such an environment, but she learns to thrive in them. I was so proud of her yesterday each time she took steps away from me to join in. I tried not to shed a tear as she looked back over her shoulder to check I was still exactly where she’d left me.

We chatted about ballet yesterday afternoon and before bed last night. Ballet again? Bubba asked, so I think it’s safe to say she enjoyed it and is looking forward to our next lesson.

I had such a tough time choosing which photos of my bashful ballerina to share with you all today. They each tell their own story. I do wonder if she’s ever going to be tall enough for her ballet tights though … she’s tutu cute!

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10 Comments Add yours

  1. So so beautiful! Don’t judge the success based on the first class. This is going to be great for both of you! Sweetest. Ballerina. Ever.

    1. She will come out of her shell I’m sure. Gorgeous little creature that she is!

  2. jmgoyder says:

    My son was like this at Bubba’s age but he soon lost his inhibitions!

  3. Margaret Beirne says:

    As always, I enjoyed this description of bubba Fonteyn! I actually think it’s not a bad sign for her to be hesitant before joining in. Besides, I was very shy of joining a group of strangers – to some extent, still am! Love you – Aunty Marg xx

  4. dogdaz says:

    Great shots. Pick up the books on Indigo Children. You may gain some insight. She is perfect. Great idea having someone else take pictures

  5. Being shy is OK (says someone who knows). She’ll find her rhythm and before long will be out there with the rest. She’s absolutely adorable in her little tutu!

    1. Thanks, we think so too 🙂

  6. Heidi Cotterell says:

    Wow I just had the privilege of reading your blog off the link posted by Trish at Little Ballerinas. When I saw your blog phrase “single by chance, mother by choice” I felt a flutter in my heart. There really hasn’t been a phrase that took my breath away like it did , but like you it manages to encapsulate my life as it does yours. I have walked in your shoes for the since October 2008, when the two solid lines appeared on the pregnancy test and I made the choice to do it alone. I can tell you (but you already know) that there are days when you cry and most nights where you worry but it takes a certain woman to do what we do. We have the most amazing job in the world and our daughters are so lucky to have such amazing women as their mum ❤
    PS can you please let me know how I follow your blog I am not familiar with the processes thnx Heidi

    1. Hello! Thank you so much for sharing our story and for your lovely comments above. It’s nice to hear from a mumma who is a couple of years ahead of me in this amazing journey. To follow our blog, scroll down the right hand side of the page and below the archives list and the meta data, there should be a heading Follow bumpyroadtobubba via email. You can fill in your email details there and you’ll get a new chapter of our story each day! xx

  7. heidi075 says:

    Thank you for the subscription instructions Peta. My little girl Breanna is 3 1/2 now, she turns 4 in June. Being a mum is so fantastic and so draining all at the same time. I think the hardest part of being a single parent is having the weight of every decision solely on your shoulders. I always wonder if I have done enough, if I have bade the right decisions for her or were they the right decisions for me. Breanna also struggles to separate but I can reassure you that with time they do improve. The more tgey venture into the eirld the more they realise that they can do things without their mum. Breanna’s first attempt at Little Ballerina – Fairy Ballet was an epic fail so I withdrew her and started her again at 3 1/2 and she seems to cope better. I am looking so forward to reading your daily blogs when I finally sit down at night xx

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