The buck stops here

I’m having trouble with this thought at the moment: the buck stops here.

I’m it. Mumma.

Me.

My shoulders feel heavy.

My eyelids too.

My nightmares are back with full force.

not mumma - image via google search

The asteroid that hit my world at the beginning of this year has shot back into our airspace, thankfully to leave soon too, but not before totally messing with my equilibrium.

I am responsible for three other living creatures. Creatures who I would walk to the end of the earth on hot coals.

If it comes to that.

 

8 Comments Add yours

  1. Amber says:

    I haven’t been following you long, but in the short time you let me see how strong you are. You are your own force of nature – stay together and ride out that asteroid as Team Mumma does! And thank you for always being honest and open to us.

    1. Thank you – honesty about my journey is something I promised when I first started writing. I know this will pass, hopefully sooner than later!

  2. Emma says:

    Yep. But if I can do it honey then so can you. I can’t even cook. Or sew. 🙂 love u xx

  3. Belinda says:

    Hello lovely,
    As usual, a beautiful and honest peace. If there is anything we can do, please let us know.
    I am not sure if you will find this helpful or not, but I will share it in case it does.
    I have been feeling the pinch of responsibility alot lately with The Root Cause mission of Transforming Children’s Health, One Lunch Box At A Time and everything I need to do in my 3 work days to make this happen and get us ready to take it on the road around Australia. My chest has been tight, my back & shoulders in agony. Then one day Israel posted an IQ about dedication and it made me think about how if I turn my conversation from one of responsibility of having to pull all this off to one of dedication, then it feels better. I know is just a change of word, but it works for me. Hope it’s of some use for you.

    Love Bel xoxoxo

  4. I’m sorry to hear that the asteroid is back. Remember, although not near there are people who are thinking of you (in a none stalker manner) and sending all the strength in the world. If I can help in any way….!

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