Getting by with a little help

I woke up to social media feeds filled with 9/11 tributes, a lot of them about the search and rescue dogs who worked tirelessly alongside their handlers and rescue crews.

Today is also R U OK? day in Australia. The R U OK? Foundation is a not-for-profit organisation dedicated to encouraging all people to regularly and meaningfully ask are you ok? to support those struggling with life.

I haven’t been OK. I am now, with the help of medication. It’s been a couple of months so far and hopefully won’t be more than a few more months before I can kiss my morning ritual of little white tablet goodbye. What’s been wrong with me? Anxiety. It got so bad at one point that I started to cry and couldn’t stop. Which is okay. Except it kind of wasn’t because I was sitting in my office. It was that moment when I realised I wasn’t going to be okay if I didn’t go and talk to someone.

So off to the doctor I went. We had a good chat and he suggested it might be a good idea to put me on something to help with my anxiety for a few months. And it’s definitely helping. If I needed medication for anything else, I wouldn’t hesitate. I have accepted that I am stressed and anxious about finances and trying being the best version of me I can be at home, for my family, for my friends and at work – and that I need help to get through this little bumpy patch in the road.

For me, though, I know that long-term medication isn’t the answer. I’m a firm believer in getting out what you put in, so my cleanse will hopefully help balance out my internal dialogue a little better.

getting by with a little help

I’m getting by with a little help. I’m okay because I have a lot of love around me. I also find the company of dogs to be incredibly soothing. Even if I’m out and about and don’t have my fuzzy loves with me, a quick stop to pat the ears of a willing canine cutie will lift my spirits immediately. As I’m sure it did all the rescuers at Ground Zero. Even if only momentarily.

R U OK?

9 Comments Add yours

  1. It sounds like U R going to be OK. Medication kickstart/reboot is sometimes all it takes. 9/11 coverage was on TV all day, and I was surprised that this day gets sadder each year. Shouldn’t it be better each year? It’s not. Lots of the people who work with Cupcake and me at TheraPet did volunteer visits to Ground Zero with their dogs. Tough job…

    1. The whole thing is incredibly sad … and I don’t know why, but reading about the SAR dogs mostly having passed of old age makes it sadder. Big cuddles to both of you. x

  2. theloverlist says:

    I got caught up watching all the 9/11 docos on TV last night. Twelve years on and it still leaves you with such a heavy sadness.
    I hope you find some internal balance soon hun. I’m a big believer in taking the little white pill when you need it. We all battle rough patches at various life stages, and medication can sometimes be the saviour we need to get by.
    I left work early yesterday, had a filthy headache and was in a foul mood, but the minute I came home I felt 100 times better. My pooches covered me in kisses and we spent the next 30 minutes playing tug-o-war and chase in the backyard. Pooches save the day!

  3. Bassa's Blog says:

    I am so sorry to hear that you have been unwell and suffering anxiety 😦 I hope you find peace very soon xoxoxoxoxo

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