It didn’t work this month.

As if that isn’t bad enough, the way the news was delivered by the nurse at the clinic calling with my blood test results was heartless. She actually said ‘well, you’d know by now that you’re not pregnant this month’. Um, no I didn’t know … until now. But thanks for being so kind in your delivery of that news. I have to wonder how someone who works in a fertility clinic doesn’t have more empathy when making such a phone call?

I’m actually working from home today because the pain is horrific (complete with vomiting and fainting). Physical pain makes it harder to deal with the emotional pain too, so I’m on the couch with my laptop, hot chocolate, water bottle and puppy love.

I’m going to have a month off then try again. I don’t think I was totally prepared for the tsunami of physical and emotional hits – not sure if it gets any easier, but feel like I need a few weeks to deal with all of these feelings before I move forward.

I’m so incredibly sad.