Do you ever wonder if the Universe really does have your back?

It’s been a tough few days and I’ve been fighting my anxiety every step of the way. Despite every attempt not to, there has been hot stinging in my eyes as I try to fight the tears. There have been many flocks of winged creatures caged in my chest and elephants sitting on me.

It’s days like these that I can’t help but think: do you ever wonder if the Universe really does have your back?

I believe in fate.
I believe in life’s timing.
I am present.
I am grateful.
I am optimistic.
I am kind and giving.
I believe in the greater picture and that we are all where we are supposed to be at any given moment in time.

But some days – for some minutes – or some hours – I waiver ever so.

What the hell is the Universe be doing to me right now? What {more} lessons am I supposed to be learning about relationships?

Or is the Universe just having a good laugh at me:

Oh you thought that, finally, you might have a relationship
that is worthy of your time and energy?
That it would last and not just be gone in a flash? 

While standing with my feet in the dirt, connected to the earth, breathing to try to release the birds and move the elephant, I’m trying being conscious and aware and present.

But I’m not winning today. I feel paralysed, light headed and foggy. If the earth could swallow me whole I’d let it.

So I’m not winning today.

Not at all.


About bumpyroadtobubba

Mumma to Poppy Grace (born January 2011); forever friend to my furry buddies Bella & Bear; love spending time with family & friends, cooking, reading, writing, design & watching trashy TV (when I find time)! I try to perform one random act of kindness each day & think more people should learn a lesson in unconditional love & acceptance from our 4-legged furry friends. This is my journey to motherhood & beyond - single by chance, mother by choice.
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5 Responses to Do you ever wonder if the Universe really does have your back?

  1. Gee Jen says:

    Hugs to you. This too shall pass

  2. Chelsea says:

    Love you angel. It will pass xx

  3. When you’re going through hell keep on moving and you might get out before the devil even knows you’re there…

    A Winston Churchill quote. AND a country song. Hang in there.

  4. dogdaz says:

    Anxiety is a terrible weight. Life is not easy no matter what. It’s ok not to win some days. Hug your little ones and remember to be kind to yourself.

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